02:14 am

This marks the end of my battle for you and what we had. Knowing you have chosen to sacrifice me and what we had for the good of others, I admire you, for being so selfless, but I hate you, for choosing to sacrifice my happiness without giving me any choice. But I guess this is how it is when you fall for someone who doesn’t care to put you first. My friend, you had something every one searches an entire lifetime for yet you tossed it away. But, maybe that’s because I’m not good enough, hell, who am I kidding, I am more than good enough, it’s you. 

You chose to let your clouded judgment get in the way of the good thing and now you lost it. I hope one day you’ll be able to find the happiness you so called longed and looked for. I hope you find the person you choose to become and the life you want to live and the person you choose to give your heart to. Because I love you, I told myself I’d hold out for you, but why hold out for someone who won’t ever come back? Excuses only satisfy the person making them. I was the only dumb one who chose to believe them, because I didn’t want to lose you and the hope that one day, what we had will come back. That one day, the connection we had will become powerful enough for you to realize how perfect of a fit we were. I was wrong. 

One day, I’ll be able to fall in love with someone who will treasure me for what I have to offer up in my head and down in my heart. Someone who will put me first for a change, and don’t end up regretting and taking back the love he gave me. Who would actually sacrifice, for me. One day, he’ll come and I hope yours does, too. I thought you were the person I’ve been searching low-key for, but you aren’t. My genuine love might not be enough for you, but one day, it’ll be enough for someone and he’ll be the luckiest guy on the planet. And when that day comes, I’ll tell him all about you and the precious mental connection we had and how perfect of a fit we were, in my eyes, then you chose someone else over me. And I’ll tell him that I hope you’re happy with your choice because I’m happy with mine. 

Goodbye, P. I hope you the very best in life and maybe one day, when we cross paths, I’ll be able to wish you happiness and best of luck. Until then, I’ll get stronger every day by not thinking about you and every thing we had. I will be okay, eventually.