Midnight Snack

I don't know what the reason it's for, but I can't help the feeling of always falling short to anything that comes up. Whatever it might be, I always feel like I'm coming up short. I always feel like losing to something in your life. I know there are questions I shouldn't ask, but I can't help but ask then no surprise but feel shitty afterwards. How could there be so many before me and why do I always feel so short? Nothing we do is special because they all have already been tried and done. I never know what to do to make you feel special anymore because all have been done. I always feel like I'm losing even when I'm not supposed to be competing for anything. I don't feel like the best or the only one. I'm probably most likely asking for way too much again. But it's okay, because eventually I'll have to run out of tears.